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the What the Hell Daily

Pledge.

I will inspire myself by taking my notebook collection (Dec. 2008 - Dec. 2009) and reading all of it.

I will inspire myself by going on to Wikipedia and randomly browsing.

I will inspire myself by writing every last thought that comes into my mind on a flash card.

I will inspire myself by playing bass for a little while.

Then I will inspire myself by taking those flash cards and randomly arranging them and writing something based off that.

honk!

i'm in said musical at my school. i play maggie pie, the sleazy in-your-face news reporter.

anyway.

does anyone even read this thing?! i'm so fucking boring, heh. i'm just... not... not interesting, i guess. weird but true. i get skipped over when Life distributes interesting things.

ah well. i'm fine with being boring. :) at least i admit it!

um, yeah.

a few paragraphs for all your enjoyment:

The clouds shifted, revealing the moon once more and immediately brightening the area. The figure walked a few steps closer to me, out of the shadows and into the light.

Long, flowing black hair framed his pale features and tumbled over his shoulders. His typically icy blue eyes sparkled with some sort of enthusiasm, some mischief. The dark shirt he wore looked like it had once been long-sleeved, and it was torn. Jeans fell gracefully over his hips, tight in all the right places.

And yet, he didn't try to attack me.

~jimmy <3

With Teeth: The Concept

Track I - All the Love in the World:
The opening song on the album is narrated by the main character's girlfriend. The song is her suicide note, mainly addressed to him, which leads into the next track.
"All the jagged edges disappear/Colors all look brighter when you're near/The stars are all afire in the sky/Sometimes I get so lonely I could/Why do you get all the love in the world?"

Track II - You Know What You Are:
This song, punctuated by the repeating line of "don't you fucking know what you are?" is the main character's (let's call him T) perspective. It's a few months after his girlfriend's suicide, and the wounds are still fresh. He's still blaming himself for it. T tried to make things work for a while (and hints at suicide attempts), but it all fell apart.
"I tried to sneak myself through/tried to get to the other side/Had to patch up the cracks and the holes that I had to hide/For a little bit of time I could make it work okay/Just long enough to really make it hurt/When they figured me out and it all just rotted away..."
He's lonely, miserable, setting the stage for...

Track III - The Collector:
The character's suffering. T is trying to right the wrong he believes he committed by taking on others' problems. He just ends up more miserable, however.
"I pick things up/I am a collector/And things, well things/They tend to accumulate..."

Track IV - The Hand That Feeds:
If you're comparing With Teeth to The Downward Spiral, this song is the "March of the Pigs" of the album. T is lonely, miserable, and sees flaws in the society he lives in.
"What if this whole crusade's a charade?/And behind it all there's a price to be paid/For the blood/On which we dine/Justified in the name of the holy and the divine."

Track V - Love is Not Enough:
T sinks further into depression. He thinks now that love is a lie, not helping anyone at all. For his girlfriend, it was certainly not enough to keep her alive. He's becoming nihilistic and the world is bleak for him.

Track VI - Every Day is Exactly the Same:
The days start blurring together, each of them exactly the same to the last. He's listless, lethargic, and he's had more than enough. T wants to come back though ("I'm still inside... a little bit comes bleeding through...") but, conversely, he can hardly remember a time when he felt like he was alive.
"I think I used to have a purpose/But then again, that might have been a dream/I used to have a voice/Now I never make a sound/I just do what I've been told/I really don't want them to come around..."

Track VII - With Teeth:
Introducing a new character, the seductress. She captivates T, when only two songs ago he was lamenting that "love is not enough." Track VII is his doubts about this.
He also brings up how he's afraid to love again: "I cannot go through this again..." & "This time, I'm not coming back."
"So wave goodbye/To what you are/The rules have changed/The lines begin to blur/She makes you hard/It comes on strong/You've finally found/The place where you belong..."

Track VIII - Only:
T starts to doubt that his ex-girlfriend was ever real, and that her suicide was just something he made up to taunt himself with. He's going out with the seductress, and he pretends he's happy with her (this song is as much about the seductress as it is about the girlfriend).
"Then the tiniest little dot caught my eye/And it turned out to be a scab/And I just had this funny feeling like I just knew it's something bad/I just couldn't leave it alone/Kept picking at that scab..."

Track IX - Getting Smaller:
The seductress is sometimes cold, sometimes warm. This is about her cruelty. T starts to doubt her and her "love" for him. But when she loves him, he loves her, too. This song is also about his self-harm, continuing feelings of blame toward himself for his girlfriend's death.
"My world is getting smaller every day/and that's okay..."

Track X - Sunspots:
T knows that the seductress is really trying to hurt him. But he suffers without the human contact, the intimacy they share, even though it's harming him just as much. He's addicted to her (theories speculate that both this song and "With Teeth" are about drug addiction, using the metaphor of a beautiful woman) and he's afraid of it.
"I hear it calling and I gotta get out of its way/I hear it calling and I come cause I can't disobey/I should not listen and I shouldn't believe/But I do/Yes, I do..."
He's fading away at this point.
"Sunspots cast a glare in my eyes/Sometimes, I forget I'm alive..."

Track XI - The Line Begins to Blur:
T is afraid of a lot of things now. Of being alone again, of his addiction to the seductress/the drug. He breaks up with her in this song, and it's his reflection.
"As I lie here and stare/The fabric starts to tear/It's far beyond repair/And I don't really care/As far as I have gone/I knew what side I'm on/But now I'm not so sure/The line begins to blur..."

Track XII - Beside You in Time:
The suicide. T is fed up with life. He's shed himself of the seductress. He's ready to pass on at this point ("Now that I've decided not to stay..." and "I will be beside you before long..."). Before, hardships were faced together by the pair. However, as stated at the beginning, "I'm all alone this time around..." He thinks that she is still there ("sometimes on the side/I hear a sound/places parallel/I know it's you..."), watching him. At the end, he commits suicide.
"We will never die... beside you in time..."

Track XIII - Right Where it Belongs:
Recalling the phrase from the previous track ("Everything is back where it belongs..."), this is after T's death. This is, in a way, directed toward the seductress. She, as well as the dead girlfriend, lead him to suicide (a rather Miss Murder figure, if you will). But it also poses the question to all of humanity:
"What if everything around you isn't quite as it seems? What if all the world you think you know is an elaborate dream? And if you look at your reflection, is that all you want to be? What if you could look right through the cracks?* Would you find yourself afraid to see?"

*In "Getting Smaller," it is revealed that T has already seen through the cracks ("I sort of see through the cracks/When I press up on the wall...")

one pill makes you larger...

why is perspective... perspective?
why are things smaller if they're far away? why are they larger up close?

do we all see the same colors? is what i call purple what you call green?

do we hear things the same?

oh no, i'm getting existential! get the squirt guns -- QUICK!

fainting spells

so i took some guitar tabs for fainting spells.
i converted them to sheet music (no help. i did it using my music theory knowledge and shit).
then i did some stuff. and converted it to piano.

afi - fainting spells (intro) [piano & guitar]

i am such a music geek.

i play bass.

no, really, jimmy?

here's my youtube channel.

i've uploaded two green day bass covers - east jesus nowhere and ¿viva la gloria? (little girl).